Bloody hell why should such beauty of a garden be
Oozing peace in photos but punishingly perspiring in the flesh
Trickling pearls of salt to water the gasping ground only for the
Assault to be gutted by the first sight of black swans too unbothered
Nauseatingly precious their necks curled like questions only to be
Impaled on the afternoon's rotisserie slowly baking their already
Charred feathers while they ponder the fatalism of

Gracefully decaying in this tiny miserable pond every inhale
Anointed by the vinegary tang of pores fermenting in human brine
Resting never arrives in the steady percussion of shutters and shrieks
Delighting of course in the gourmet offerings of half-chewed bread as the days
Ease into weeks into months into years into feathers falling into nothing
Nestling into the idea that today might be the day to
Serenely uncurl the question of how these slow-marinated people taste

we gathered to make art we
think but all we do is pure expression
unbridled by word banks only limited by
self imposed rules slowly shattered by every
brush stroke as we are our worst enemies
busy unlearning the laws of reality in awe of
feral paint unraveling on canvas deliberately
trying to see beauty when it’s already
all around us but they are just less pretty
because they are not birthed from
our existence

every freakin' day people point at me to remind me i'm really
old, so old my age is now a game of wild guesses
two hundred, five hundred
there's always a kid who barks one million
but the kicker is this one tour guide who reveals i'm one-fifty
with such confidence it rattles the oldest leaf
off my two-hundred-year-old branch
and when it lands on his head, he just thinks
the universe is telling him he's right

i'm so old but they refuse to let me die
they strap me into steel braces like a patient
who never asked for surgery
as if some tragedy would befall this land
if i go. and the root of all this fuss?
they stuck my face on five dollars once
and now i'm too expensive to die

all because some artist saw lottery numbers in my bark,
placed a five-dollar bet and won first prize.
he got a car. i'm still here

i had friends once, before they dotted us across the island.
i hope they were lucky enough to just fall
two hundred years watching swan lake and nothing's changed
same fights, same tears, same joggers outrunning nothing
kids used to climb me, couples leaned into my trunk like i was theirs
now i'm on crutches and nobody touches what might break.

the age game though. i'd be lying if i said i don't listen.

I was walking fast
Overtaking everyone
Blocked by slow coaches
I swerved but some sweaty guy
Suddenly grazed my arm! Ew!

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screamed the school cheer at the top of our lungs
just a choir girl borrowing glory in a kingdom of track and field
my eyes were set on triple science the top-most rungs
physics, chemistry, biology was the hill, leaving my pen concealed

loud with a chosen few, being unseen was my rule
exiled to the back row, gladly, a willing renegade
fifty cent ice cream from trespassing a primary school
3am alarms to cram while feeling like a god self-made

wearing soiled shoes on a monday trying to impress
boarding the latest bus trying to beat the clock
jamming to the cranberries' zombie feeling badass
who is michael anyway why is he learning to rock

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last time we were a fine city
pure intention
too archaic we progress faster with
the whip
returned our trays
kept our durians off the train
binned our litter in the trash
over time we forget why we
acted this way as prosperity grew
we still did
not for prosperity but
conscience
we walked a stranger's wallet to the station
happiness was not the reward but
the reason for the walk
derobotize
our love for this land
as happiness too dissolves like me for
i am ashes now scattered and free

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i can feel the earth crack as trapped
remnants of the dead self escape through each
fissure without saying goodbye, just like how
insignificant my last day was, just quietly shutting
down, just like how my grandma left, quietly shutting
down, and hopefully that's how my end will unfold until
i'm done with all there is to be done even though these days
flashes of statements, not ideas tell me I'm already done which
strangely made me look forward to the final act but then claude
tells me i'm not done yet. why build something that goes away but
my little niece shows me how fun it is to destroy what was painstakingly
built because something new will always emerge. so exorcise
all stubborn demons of pride, doubt and fear.
keep my head low do the work. savor the journey ignore the destination
because time passes by anyway why not spend on real hard work
plant the seeds everyday lay the bricks everyday don't chase
the transient likes, for only the best emerges after decades of quiet
work and even if the best is still germinating the endless days of toil
will humble me about life before i finally declare that i'm really done.

Practice smiling before entering
I need to look less like a bitch

Unbitch I must do so quickly
Before they project their shadows on my face

Shadows are serpents they love coiling on this face
This face would run this country on a man!

On a woman this face would haunt the land
Cheeks lifted, eyes softened here I go

Cheeks aching, eyes still tame I'm here now
Entering a room of rehearsed smiles

The smiles stay rehearsed ice not thawed
The groups stay impenetrable to my farce

The groups, the impenetrable farce so I should
Practice smiling more before entering

Write like no one’s reading but
you know your soul is judging the
very words that came into

existence

due to your total abandonment of
propriety and poise
as if words should be

guarded

with max security as they will
burn down this city of standing and order
once unleashed
but only the

shameless

will turn their face away from the
judgement because all there is
left
when a person turns to
dust
would be words that will last

(should they be found)

The couch looks inviting the bed
feels warm but you must not squander
the promise of the day because your
dead grandmothers would have
used the day to

tend to the plants
read a book
write a letter
make a kueh
feed a stray
sew a blouse
cook up a storm so

do not just think tomorrow you will do better
as yesterday's tomorrow is already here so don't
slot time into 24-hour buckets
blindly following the sun like sheeple
not every tomorrow holds great promise
yours might decide to not show up

Go boldly unroot yourself from the
mishmash of half-baked ideas and self-proclaimed
profound notions just kill them all. you will leave behind
nothing but ash anyway so go

make something stupid
something insane
something ugly enough to survive
something that will become a cautionary tale

something that will stir your grandmas in their graves